Another Few Deep Moments

Hello everyone It's Fusa again and I have to say that sometimes lack of sleep can make you philosophic or Emo...all depends on how you look at it.Well here are a few of said Moments brought on by lack of sleep,My urge to "get it on" with my Friend,and playing a little game call "Persona" Or "Shin Magami Tensei" if you want the "REAL" title.

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September 17th, 2009

Thursday/ 7:15 AM

Desire...

Don't try to deceive yourself.
Break through your conscience.
Break through and become real.
Become...

my power.

my drive.

my.

life...

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September 17th, 2009
Thursday/ 8:33 AM

Rage...

Anger and desperation in it's purest form.
It consumes you.
It feeds off your hate.
It tries to take over.
no...

you will not.

I feed off you.

I am.

Stronger...

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September 17th, 2009
Thursday/ 8:28 AM

Love...

It can be a weakness.
It can be a strength.
It will always exists.
Just like hate will.
Life...

You give life.

You bring happiness.

keep me.

alive...

Tired and...well still Tired

Well I am tired as hell....thats about normal around my place.My house just emits tiredness.   About my last post and the addicted to soda,I am...plain and simple...I am addicted and I LOVE IT!

anyway...

I was playing another game called "CABAL"...if you are playing it and not having trouble then FUCK YOU!

I downloaded it and since then I have been having internet problems up the wa zoo.Okay I know that it is most likly not cabal's fault and more like my modem's fault but still...I had to remove the modem from my sight so I didn't go apeshit on it and bust it to pieces with my bare fists...

I AM A MAN!!! *Punches Modem out the window*

Well I have been having the same problem with my modem...It says it's connected to the internet but it is not actually conected...IT PISSES ME OFF!!!

I AM AN ANGRY GAMER!!! *smashes modem with my copy of MICROCOSM (one of the worst games ever)*

Yes I love The Spoony One's vids...

Of Men,Soda,and Video Games (Review of Pariah)

well I'm up at the asscrack of dawn and I am feeling like shit...yea it's just the fact that I was up all night and...I realized this...I am addicted to soda....I always have at least one 2 leter. bottle with me at all times and I never stop drinking it.I'm drinking some right now.

Anyway thats not what I was aiming to tell you...I just played a game that was a good first person shooter but...it wasn't so great...because it gave you little to no back story and plus the ending was that you killed yourself...yes you read it right...KILLED YOURSELF!!!...and it causes this girl,I think your daughter,that was infected by this...Virus code named "Pariah" (Which happens to be the name of the game...) which can generate huge amounts of energy,I mean huge, To go crazy with rage and cause basically a nuclear explosion...A FRIGGIN NUCLEAR EXPLOSION!!!....I can not stress how STUPID that sounds but okay I'll go along just for the hell of it...in any case they did use a kind of RPG element which I think saved it from complete damnation...each gun you get is not automatically at it's full potental...like the Bulldog,the main automatic rifle, the first upgrade is faster fire rate, second is recoil reduction so you have better accuracy, and the final upgrade is armour pericing(which I think is stupid because you get the plasma rifle before you can upgrade the Bulldog up that high and the plasma rifle is a burst fire pericing weapon with the same amount of rounds per clip as the bulldog).

But all that aside if your a Shooting Type of guy (Or girl...I know you ladies love killing things when no one is watching) then you might want to give it a try.

Oh and the main character looks similar to the main character on Half-Life 2 (which was a good shooter)

just look at how much they look alike...

They both always have the weird haz-Mat suit going on

                                     

                                        Brothers?

Graphics: 8.5

Storyline: 5

weapons: 9

characters: 7

Overall I give it a 8...just 8...good enough to rent but not good enough to own...thank god I'm only borrowing it from a friend...

 Well guys I know I haven't posted in so long but just hear me out...This summer has to be one of the weirdest summers ever...Just so you guys know for future reference I am affected with a  so called "Mental Instability"...I have multible personas

I know it sounds weird but it's true I went to a psycologist and thats what she said...and yes I have been on the reciving end of some bad jokes like "what are the voices telling you now?" and "do you ever have an arguement with yourself?".Just to clear that up Yes I have arguments with myself and "she" is telling me to punch you in the face for that cruel joke.

Now back to the non-posting thing...well I have been throught alot this summer already...

1.) My Girlfriend is living with an @sshole of a roommate and she vents on me.

2.) My other friend's dad is getting even worse and has actually even punched her. (and yes the "Other" me is pissed and wants to go Ape shit on his ass)

3.) I sometimes can't sleep at night because of the "talks" I have with myself.

4.) Nightmares...refer to the post below for the reason I don't go into detail.

Well thats all the stuff That can be said to the public...

There is good news...I am starting to review games (More like rant) and things like that on my youtube account if you want the adress it's:

http://www.youtube.com/user/FusashiYuraka

Sleep still eludes me Kyaaaaa!!!

So It's 1:36 over here as we speak and I am officaly tired of staying up so late....I swear that I try to get some sleep but I am never able to drift off into REAL sleep.I end up haveing what you call a Half-Dream state where I am aware of my surroundings and I am also haveing the dream at the same time.It sucks when I am like that because I have some Horrible Nightmares...I'll give a few examples.

1.) Having me limbs and insides removed one at a time then finnaly having my heart crushed in front of me.

2.) I am about to have the girl of my dreams then I get my head choped off by said girl.

Now those were the Easiest to listen to and I think you don't what to know the worst of them so lets leave it at that.

Now on to other things...Despite all this chaos in my mind and soul I still hang on for a few reasons.

1.) I hang on for my friends,even though I can be a bit cruel towards them and Vice Versa.

2.) I will never take the cowards way out,Thats just not my style...

and finnaly the most important reason is that I have someone I wish to protect...and I won't die just yet for her sake...even if a buss ran me over I wouldn't give up the ghost.

Well there you have it.My late night post.So intill next time,I wish you all a fare night.

*Bows and fades into the darkness*

Spring Cleaning and Old Friends

Ok people I have some good news!!! I am finnaly Cleaning my room!.....and I am serious I didn't even know there was a floor before I started cleaning haha. well the other good news is I am able to talk to my Friend...yea she lives in Texas so we can only talk on the phone.I am so happy that it kinda makes up for the horrible spring break.I am not looking foward to next week though.I am going to have to work my Butt off next week so more sleepless nights.You can be sure to see more Posts from me over the next cupple weeks...lots of posts...

Intill next time...I bid you all Farewell...*Fades into the darkness*

Spring Break:Fun,Relaxation,Or Terror?

Ok This whole Spring Break Has been a bit of a hectic thing for Me.I Have been working this whole spring break and I have to say that this is the first Spring Break That has actually made me MORE Tired then I was before it started.So far this Spring Break Has done these things to me:

1.)Caused me to lose 3 Whole nights of sleep...

2.)When I do Sleep I wake up in a cold sweat and in terror.

3.)Poped my knee (OW!) Out of place.

4.)Almost get crushed by a big Metal Box.(Thank God I was standing an Inch to the left or else you wouldn't see this post)

5.)and I had a hacker TRY to use my internet access as a detour...(Heh nice try dude but I am better...HA!)

so that just about sums it up. so intill next time...I bid you farewell...

*fades into the darkness*

The idiots are taking over....

Well people this is Fusashi....I'm sure you already knew that but any who...I was talking to my friends about this and I think you will agree too.We were talking about the decline of intelligence in people now days,We came to the conclusion that for every Smart person the must be about 50 idiots in this world...and to make it easier for idiots to understand its 1 out of every 50 people.

I would like to personally admit that I do have my short-commings but I haven't stuck my hand in a snake hole like somebody I know >_>....(His name starts with Tyler Putnal...and There is bound to be people that see this and say "Hey thats not how a name begins.A name begins with a Letter not the whole thing...and that makes me sad)

A Deep Thought (My Friends called it "The Moment")

Human kind is still just a creature that fears the darkness...he doesn't face that fear he just adverts his eyes and acts asif he has no memory of it.

But for as long as we have lived as a creature our fear has withered...and even time has withered our longing to know the truth about this fear.

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Is is a crime to search for the Truth?

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Is it a sin to seek out that which we fear?

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My purpose in this world is the knowing the truth...

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Fear...it is something that is vital to us frail and weak creatures the instant
that man stops fearing is the instant that we as a race will reach a dead end.
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Only to reach such a low,
Only to sit and wait for our complete destruction...
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I just wished that people would wake up,
And not be afraid of the truth...
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Humans that lose the compacity to think become an exsistance with no value...
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Think you humans that are split into two worlds,
Unless you want the gulf that exsists between human to expand into oblivion...
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You must THINK!
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You must Seek the TRUTH!
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-------------------------------------------------------Signed- Fusashi Yuraka

Music and How it Affects Me

I Find that if I listen to Chello music while in a dark room I think of a lot of alot of random deep things and also I listen to Chello music while I do my writing I end up getting so engrossed in my story that I end up feeling like I am the characters and they end up writeing the story them selves,funny huh?

I Highly recommend listening to this album while in a dark room...just try it...it will make you in a relaxed mood and the thoughts just starts flowing.